As I write this, I know that chances are strong that I'll end up deleting this after I post it.  I get highly embarrassed by what I'm about to do.  I know many will look at what I'm writing as being worthy of condemnation; I don't disagree.  I know I'm being highly selfish because this diary is all about me.

I feel like crap.  I'm having a particularly bad day.  I haven't felt quite this bad in years.  I'm not going to go into the specifics of how I got to feeling the way I do today.  I've written a couple diaries on here before, and I've commented a lot, so a few people might recognize my name maybe, but mostly, I'm unknown.  So here are some of the highlights of who I am.  I'm a 28 year old white gay male living in Virginia.  I still live with my parents in the same house I've lived in my entire life.  We live on a farm, and I dearly love the scenery of this farm.  I'm exceptionally close with my mother, though we still have our moments of conflict.  I have nothing but moments of conflict with my father as he's been little more than an abusive alcoholic my entire life.  We no longer fear for our physical safety the way we did when I was growing up, but dealing with my father is still stressful for a variety of other reasons.

One day, a frog was sitting on the bank of a river enjoying its day.  After a while, a scorpion came along.  He walked over the frog and said, "Hey Frog, I want to get across this river but I can't swim, will you carry me across on your back?"

The frog looked at the scorpion for a moment and said, "That would not be a good idea.  You are a scorpion; you'll sting me if I do."

The scorpion retorted, "No, I won't.  If I sting you, we'll both drown."

The frog considered for a moment and then said, "Alright, I'll take you across the river."  And so, the scorpion climbed up onto the frog's back and they set off across the river.

Halfway across the river, the scorpion stung the frog.  As the poison began to kill the frog, the frog said, "But, you said you wouldn't sting me.  Why did you do this?"

The scorpion replied, "I'm a scorpion; it's in my nature."

In an attempt to further his campaign for President of the United States, Barack Obama is going to have a "Gospel Tour" in South Carolina.  One of the participants in Obama's tour will be the openly anti-gay "ex-gay" singer and preacher Donnie McClurkin.  There's been a lot of discussion of this already here on Daily Kos, and as I read over many of the comments, I came across a quotation of McClurkin posted by anastasia p.  Curious, I googled for the source of the quotation, and I came across an article written by McClurkin for Charisma Magazine.

I was both shocked and not really shocked to find that McClurkin actively preaches hate.  He advocates for it as if hatred is a good thing.